Feeling Blessed

Today I don't have any new medical updates to share. I probably got a little wild and overdid yesterday so I am having a lousy day of paying for it today! Since I am mostly parked on my couch I am feeling reflective and sappy. I have a beautiful daughter that is counting the minutes until she is 16 and allowed to date ( I might add that several young men are also counting down!). As we have talked about Alexa entering the dating world and having fun getting to know lots of guys, I have been thinking about my guy and what "real " love is. Alexa is WAY too young to seriously think about this yet, but I wonder how many people are looking for a romantic Hollywood story and miss the true deep stuff. Not that romance isn't fun and important, and Tyler has done lots of fun romantic things for me over the years, but the real deal isn't always glamorous and exciting. The real deal is him setting the alarm multiple times during the night so the chemo doesn't sit in your bladder and cause burns. And then half dragging you out of your drug addled coma to the bathroom. The real deal is him reaching "pro" status on flappy bird because of the literally thousands of hours he has spent at dr appt's, in hospitals, and sitting by your side through every single chemotherapy infusion. The real deal is him learning how to empty drain tubes and draining all matter of putrid fluids out of your body -and never complaining once about the nastiness. The real deal is him shaving his head when you lost your hair- and him telling you how beautiful you are bald. The real deal is him becoming a protective papa bear about visitors coming that might have germs to make you sick. Even though you feel bad and hope he doesn't offend people, you know he loves you so much that he doesn't care who he offends- as long as you are protected. The real deal is looking back on nearly 20 years together, and realizing that even though he has been a source of frustration(as you are to him!) he has always been by your side. He has proven himself by stepping up to the plate when times got hard, and you know that God truly brought you together. I am so grateful every day for the not so sexy side of true love!! What a gift I have been given, and I realize that I must never take it for granted!! Thanks to all of you for listening to me ramble - I promise I will send relevant info next time. I truly am blessed!! ~ Melissa <3